I was told in 2009 "Why optimize? Hardware upgrades will make your efforts obsolete anyway." So... I devoted my time to optimization, because fuck that. I ended up doing algorithm optimization in my first full time job, and loved... That part of the job at least.
Indie games and co-op games are my jam. I feel for all of this comment.
Not necessarily the case, but if it's affecting your life so strongly, you might want to get checked by a medical professional.
Long COVID can destroy your life. Depression can destroy your life. Iron deficiency can ruin your life. A lot of things you might just think is just being tired may actually have a cause. Especially if simple fixes like "touch grass" style clichés do nothing for you.
It's not always the answer, but it's good to rule out in that case.