Neurodivergence

ADHD Jesse’s channel is a trove of information for understanding more about the ADHD mind works. Another great one is How to ADHD, incidentally her name is Jess. Her videos have gotten some extremely emotional responses from me because she explains things I’ve never known how to and that no psychologist has been able to pinpoint or explain.

To unlock that understanding of yourself and have an explanation for how you think, feel and operate after struggling for so long with it is a powerful emotion

Since 2018 I'm trying to pass competitive service exams in Spain. I tried everything to just start studying and be productive, and everything failed after some minutes, hours or even days, passing myself most of the time playing video games or browsing reddit or doing nothing.

I was diagnosed at the end of last year, and when I started taking stimulants... I could study like never before. Now I'm with a non-stimulant, and I'm again at the start place, except I'm less impatient, less impulsive, less mind-racing and less distracted. But no executive function at all.

Other neurodivergents keep saying we don't suck, it's just our brain which is wired in a different way compared to neurotypicals. But how can I think I don't suck, when my only goal is to be a civil servant and I can't even start preparing myself to that goal?

Anyway, this video is interesting, I like it, but I don't think it brings me a miraculous solution. It only explains why I'm like this.