Programming

I to this day still have to Google tons of stuff, even very simple things; sometimes it's just hard to remember that function's name or whatever, it's no big deal.

Programming didn't click for me until I actually built something. Just a little command line game. Eventually after a certain point I realized: oh my god I can do anything! (with enough time)

You'll get there, but try working on something bigger with zero stakes where you can feel out how code you write in one place ripples out to other places.

That's the great thing, you never get rid of imposter syndrome! The thing that helped me was the mantra "there's always someone better than you". It's true for everything, so I can focus on just having fun and delegating to those that know more (which is also an important skill since nobody knows everything).

As for improving skills, practice makes perfect. 6 weeks is pretty much nothing. If you work out on one muscle group for 6 weeks, the chances of you seeing significant gains is minimal. You've gotta stick with it for months or years. Just look at the weight-loss journeys of people - it takes some years to lose their weight.

Don't be hard on yourself, find interesting tasks or sites with challenges you consider interesting and try to solve them. https://exercism.org/ is OK, but there are many different ones out there. I can definitely recommend watching videos that explain data structures visually. They'll make much more sense.

Good luck!