FourteenEyes

Legacy of Kain is my favorite video game series ever. Melodramatic vampires played by classically trained actors using competent Fakespeare and ridiculously convoluted time travel with highly specific rules to tell an amazing story that has maybe a dozen actual characters in it. They all talk at length about destiny and irony and whatnot and the vampires suck the blood out of their victims telekinetically in a coherent stream, and Raziel fucking eats souls. Also Raziel is played by the same guy who voices Chaz Finster and Drew Pickles in Rugrats.

Someone remade the cutscene from Soul Reaver 2 where Raziel confronts Kain and Kain's like "actually check this shit out" and has the famous "suppose the coin lands on its edge" quote in it, absolute fucking banger

I didn't do three tours hurling napalm at Canadian kindergartners so the liberal loony left can reverse the Ghoul Removal Act of 2282

Need to find a giant pickup truck out in the wasteland so I can restore it and make holotapes of myself ranting about Hollywood trying to force Chinese communism down our throats

fucking lmao

"I can't install the unofficial patch with minimal hassle unless I add the file frameworks and content from the .esm files"

So after going from "this writing sucks" to "I would die for Walton Goggins so he can turn me into cracker jerky so he can stop Kyle McLachlan from becoming the capitalist Kwisatz Haderach" watching the Fallout series, I wanted to give Fallout 4 another shot, but to mod it so that it's good. The DLC is on sale for ten bucks. I'm going to install the Horizon gameplay overhaul and the unofficial patch and little quality of life things, and was wondering if there was a Project Nevada-style overhaul as well, and some equivalent of EVE that adds fancy new pew-pew lasers and plasma that don't look like chlamydic discharge

Is there any other Fallout 4 mods that make it not suck complete ass? I'm going to assume someone made a mod that removes the main character's voice acting entirely. I hope to god there is.

WHERE TO GET THE BOOK: http://libgen.is/book/index.php?md5=F6B31A8DAFD6BD39A5986833E66293E6

PRIOR THREADS:

• Introduction
• Chapter One
• Chapter Two
• Chapter Three
• Catch-up/Revival

So again, been a minute. I've been dealing with a lot of shit, and kept putting this off because I really didn't want to half-ass it. So I guess I'm using three quarters of my ass here.

In chapter 4, Dr. Price goes over the various flawed ways masked autistics keep themselves going just to function, and how incredibly debilitating the effects of all this are. Namely substance abuse, eating disorders, detachment/disassociation, adherence to rigid belief systems, and fawning/people-pleasing. I've experienced all of these to some degree or another myself, and have been working extremely hard to find my way out of the dark forest. I keep bumping into trees (social problems).

Anyway, Dr Price talks about how booze and weed are seen as gateways to social acceptance since it makes you more relaxed and people expect "goofy" behavior out of the inebriated. Eating disorders allow us to be focused on being thin and pretty, or else just burying our feelings under a mountain of junk food, or binging and purging -- anything to seize some control. Detachment/disassociation allow us to function, technically, even when internally we just have to shut down and carry on with what we're doing. Rigid belief systems? Very good way to easily sort out "good" and "bad" things and people. Fawning? Something every socially successful autistic person has fallen back on at some point as reflexive self-defense, but also a strategy people lean into to be liked (but not respected).

The reasons for these behaviors are pretty plain to see, as is the damage they do to us. This one resonated with me a lot; I'll have to take some time to write out my thoughts in full later on, but I wanted to get this one posted because I've been putting it off long enough. Discussion questions:

• As usual, any passages or quotes that really stick out to you? Anything confusing or enlightening?
• What flawed coping strategies have you used to get through life? What has it cost you?
• Are you still struggling with any of these? Are you starting to realize you're struggling and just didn't notice the specific way yet?

Tag post to follow, my own thoughts later on.

WHERE TO GET THE BOOK: http://libgen.is/book/index.php?md5=F6B31A8DAFD6BD39A5986833E66293E6

PRIOR THREADS:

• Introduction
• Chapter One
• Chapter Two
• Chapter Three

So, it's been a minute. Apologies. Life has been overwhelming me lately. School, work, more failed attempts at dating, etc. Please be patient, I have autism (probably)

I was also reading Devon Price's new book, Unlearning Shame. Definitely recommend. He dismantles shame as a social construct of behavioral reinforcement and the undergirding of the lie that is rugged individualism, and prescribes the cure of building community and understanding social interconnectedness on a deep level. Made me re-examine just how much shame is woven into the fabric of the way I conduct myself and hoo boy it's a lot. I blame my Catholic upbringing.

Anyway, I figured before I dive back into the next chapter it'd be nice to get caught up and see where everyone is at. Share your thoughts here, ask questions, get caught up. I want to make a new post next week but first I have to write an informative speech and then an essay about some story or another

Let's cut down on the decision paralysis with some discussion questions:

• What's new with you, neurodiversity-wise, since the last thread?
• Any points of contention, confusion, or questions from prior chapters?
• Post any thoughts specific to the last chapters that you didn't get to share before.

Tag post to follow.