Autism

When I was younger I also was told that I had a bit of a "debbie downer" presence.

Something that helped me was the concept of "yes and", when someone says something, find anything in, or tangential to, their statement that you can either :

1. Agree with
2. Comment on
3. Tangent from

Then the "and" part, add something of your own to the conversation.

Force yourself to balance your natural negativity with forced positivity and over time you may find that you no longer have to force it, and that you enjoy finding hidden positives in things, like a game, it turns conversation into a puzzle.

In general, people like being agreed with. So sometimes before disagreeing you can even say, "I agree with X part" and then instead of saying you blatantly disagree, change your tone to something like, "I would probably modify Y and see if I like it." It's all about controlling your tone and playing to human tendencies.

Once you get to know someone better, you can be a bit looser, some people like autistic truths. Know your audience, sometimes it's as easy as asking, "Oh, am I being too negative, I try not to do that."

Good luck!

I have some experience with this unintended negativity, both from working on my own and helping friends and colleagues (programmers). You care and want to help - feeling positive or neutral, people feel like you are pushing negativity on them.

I'm happy to have a longer discussion with you over DM to help - maybe go through some conversation examples - but for general advice I'd focus on:

1. Suggesting improvement is criticism.

2. When talking about non-persons (plan, initiative, item, map, game, ...) people will take it personally if they have any connection to it. E.g. if they found a new gun, they may be excited to test it out. Commenting "x is better" sucks away their happiness. If they have spent a lot of time grinding on something, telling them "you should do Y it is faster" devalues the time they spent and makes them feel stupid.

3. Most people you interact with don't want to play optimally. Any helpful advice to show them a better way is making them feel worse about the fun they are having.

4. But! If people ask you for advice explicitly, let loose! What would otherwise be interpreted as negativity, will be taken positively.

Comming from a simular situation. So the best I can give is my own story.

Nearing my 40s. More of a rimworld/minecrafter. Every day off work, every waking minute im in a game.

short version of a long story. I'm experiencing huge life changes. Therapy and friends convinced me to remove one of the major causes of my isolation. And with it going away I saw just how isolated I actually was all this time. I saw how badly it has affected me. The negativity is part of that. It's like a symptom of isolation poisoning.

I feel for the first time that I've wasted so much time. I didn't value making friends or seeking a life parter. Though having made a friend everything changed.

Honestly the desire to play games is fading and it now feels bad to play games all day. Making a real friend who is postive made me want to be more positive i leared that it's a genuinely good feeling.

Isolation is comfortable but it comes at a cost you may not see. It's good to go out and get some perspective occasionally.

Hey, there's a lot going on in this post. This might be a bit beyond our scope. I recommend seeking professional help. It sounds like there's a number of things that you'd wanna talk about in therapy: depression, gaming addiction, boundaries, self criticism, emotional regulation, etc.

I know you call yourself a shut in with no money. See if you can find something virtual and through insurance. Or request financial hardship rates. You gotta do something. The only wrong answer is to keep doing nothing.

I used to be in this pit too (and still dip back in every once in a while)

What helped me was recognizing what “negative Nancy’s” sounded like

What I sounded like. I recorded myself once and just kept tally of all the times I disagreed, argued, or tried to push on something that wasn’t worth pushing about.

Are you feeling depressed? Have you tried talking with professionals or maybe even just your family about it? They likely know you best and will be able to help you out.

Sometimes talkin with a good therapist you can vibe with a bit just helps to see these alternate viewpoints that your cognitive bias won’t/can’t see

Might be worth it. For me, and it seems like maybe you too, getting fed up with myself was the first step to being critical and objective about my choices in behavior. Sometimes being a bit “lighter” about stuff is what you need to help reset. But that can be hard if you’re struggling physically to produce enough serotonin or whatever the ailment might be. Other times it’s just habits you need to change.

Life is too short to be miserable. You will die the same way unless you take action to course correct and start living more brightly.

Been there, sort of. Lifelong depression does tend to make you "negative" and apparently some people hate that. NTs are not necessarily genius communicators who've worked at it a lot, it's just that most people per definition tend to communicate their preferred/"natural" way. This means that whatever is pissing them off is a) not necessarily wrong, b) not necessarily what/why they think it is, and c) something you'll likely have to work at whether you're "in the wrong" or not.

Kinda depressing, eh?

Unfortunately, sometimes negativity is contagious - sharing something negative with someone is likely to worsen their mood. I won't conjecture why that is - I can only really say that whenever people dump long lists of everything wrong with the world on me, I rarely feel great about it afterwards. Negativity is often warranted, usually realistic, sometimes funny in specific ways etc., but mostly it is still just negativity.

Try and be mindful about this: what are you communicating? Is the content or tone negative? Did you get onto a negative track from something more positive? It is not easy, but you could unironically put up a visible reminder. Don't overdo the self-censoring either, though, that's also not healthy.

Also, are you taking up a lot of space in the conversation relative to others? This can add some friction too if the disparity is big enough. I have been both the loud person (usually from boredom) and the person getting annoyed at someone individually being like 50% of a chat. One man's dead chat is a reasonable level of activity for another, after all.

(All the above is personal experience - reasonably sure the buzzkill stuff is an actual thing but I wasn't able to find a citation or anything.)

Hey man if all you like is destiny amd WoW you rock that shit and fuck anyone who would put you down for doing what you love. I played hundreds of hours of dwarf fortress and I ain't stopping.

I work on my single player backlog now and then, but otherwise I usually rock the same old games. DF, Deep Rock Galactic, warhammer total war. Just thousands of hours. Sall good. It's my life, and when the time comes it will be me dieing not all these haters telling us what to do.

Find what peace you can dude, don't let the haters take that away from ya.

As for the socializing thing, it's hard to say what it is from what we know about the situations. If I had to guess, it sounds like you over share. Everybody thinks "shit fuck God damned it" or whatever when shit goes sideways in game. However not everyone yells it into the microphone. Consider using push to talk and vent your frustration off air if you must.

Keep trying, eventually you will either get better at effective communication or you'll fall in with a like minded crowd.

Interacting is hard and people can be awful, especially online. (As you well know). Try to find the positive attributes you can focus more on - cool names, clever comments, good play, indeed even them showing a good attitude.

Cop to tending to sound negative - honestly might help a lot. “You may think this sounds critical but I’m trying to help” - set some context since it’s easy to misunderstand without interacting in person.

As trite as this may sound don’t give up on the things that bring you a measure of joy.

Good luck, I hope you know folks DO give a crap.

It's hard when you don't have any IRL friends and don't even fit in online. The truth is that trying to be social online can be even harder because it's so shallow. When it comes to groups like that, they can be more exclusionary then having personal time with someone because the group is there for a purpose and anyone who brings down the mood gets shown the door.

I thought the whole point of playing Destiny 2 was hating it

1. Play better games. The meaningless pursuit of power is rotting your brain. Chasing gear is boring and asks nothing of you.
2. Get different hobbies. Seriously. Games are rotting your brain. Go see a movie. Go bird watch or something.
3. Is your representation of other people problem with you really accurate? Reading your post, I don't think anyone could glean what's really going on. Like, how are you negative? Are you verbally berating someone who doesn't heal you in WOW? What questions are you finding acceptable in the LGBTQIA+ groups? Are you finding it reasonable for someone to imply all queer folks are pedos?

Itt: a ton of nice people take time out their day to write long, detailed, and helpful advice, which OP argues with at every turn. LOL

Socializing well is one of the hardest struggles of being a human, and even people that are naturally social still may not get along well with others. I like to recommend the book "How to Win Friends and Influence People" by Dale Carnegie. Think of it like a "For Dummies" book on socializing. It has a lot of real-life anecdotes for difficult social situations people overcome and how. I should mention I just pirated the audiobook for it though.

Also, like others have said, I like listening to Healthy Gamer on youtube/twitch. He's a real, active therapist with a lot of experience helping people with these kinds of things, particularly for gamers. You can also just play it in the background while doing other things.